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Transcription is from the DOE  Corpus (without permission, so don't using this for anything), which in turn is from Thorpe 1840: Thorpe, 1840 II, 394-400; Thorpe, B.  Ancient Laws and Institutes of England , 2 vols., folio ed. in 1 vol., Great Britain Public Records Commission 28 (London).

This is clunky, imperfect, and a work in progress.  I am definitely going for identifying key passages first and fussing with finer points after.  Corrections welcome.


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returning to non-sedentary life

My problem with getting back to something after a break has always been overdoing it - I go in thinking of what I used to be able to do and I get frustrated at my limitations or - more often - I overdo it before I even realize I have overdone it and I hurt myself again, which is a huge freakin' aggravation and very disheartening.

So I have been taking it pretty easy on the running, since unlike martial arts or kickboxing, my break from it has been over a decade long and I don't feel funny about considering myself a total beginner, a brand new runner. Hell, there have been a lot of injuries and physical changes since then besides just the decade of age. The new insoles are working out pretty well - the arch and ankle pain has been pretty much non-existent since I started back running. I have not, however, run further than two miles (and two miles is pretty much the limits of what I have in me, and the end of that two miles is always really ugly - though this may be in part due to my running routes, all of which involve hills given my neighborhood, and perhaps also that I no longer eat like an active person and have fallen into misinterpreting hunger signals, thirst signals, etc). But really - I'm not especially interested in distance for the hell of it. I am interested in fitting back into my teaching clothes and in not being a giant sloth with no strength or endurance. If I get my ass back into the gym anytime soon, I'd like to not be assailed by fail on both the cardio AND strength angles. Fail in one area or the other is plenty, thanks.

But I didn't start out mapping my routes b/c I didn't want to psych myself out. I just wanted to do the "get off the sofa and move for at least fifteen minutes" thing instead of the "if you can't exercise for an hour then there's no point in doing it at all" thing, which is how I got into this abysmal shape (the worst of my life). Over the past couple of weeks, I have mapped them, and have realized just how far I'm *not* running, and also that I'm not really feeling any better/stronger during runs cardio- or strength-wise. (I haven't been running as regularly as I'd hoped - largely because I HATE IT -- but I have managed to at least get 8 or 10 laps in the pool in even if I don't run three times a week, so at least I'm moving a little and have stopped the mass exodus of arm and shoulder strength). Since I haven't re-injured myself, which is excellent, I figure it's time to step something up.

But I don't really know what -- if I should be finding flatter routes and trying for longer distances, or rather longer times, or if I ought to run like we did in the army - 2 miles on Monday, 4 or 5 on Wed, 6 or 8 on Friday? (I'm not likely to actually do that kind of distance, I bet, because it's just going to take too long 1. to actually run it, and 2. to get into the shape to do it. Running is not my great love - kickboxing is. But I just cannot seem to get to the gym during class time right now.) Or if getting up to two miles and staying there is good enough? (I'll probably never see a seven minute mile again, never mind a 6.5 minute mile which was probably my all-time army best in my twenties, but even at an 8 minute mile, two miles just doesn't seem like "enough running time." Even sucking serious wind and walking for little bits, two miles is only a twenty minute run - is that worth doing? If it matters, I have never been fast - if that business about different types of leg muscle is true, then I don't have any of the necessary sprinting muscles, but I could run for a long /time/. Of course, I have short-ass little legs, too.)

And I have dutifully Googled, but I've found schedules that are so regimented that they will probably backfire - if I fuck up one week, and I will whether b/c of weather or b/c of lack of motivation, I am likely to toss the whole thing if I never get past week one just right. So I think I'm looking for general guidelines of what I ought to be trying to do rather than schedules like "train for a 5K in two months" or "beginning runners" (I am NOT going to spend a month walking before I run - it is NOT going to happen. Especially not since I've been running - more sporadically than is ideal but still running - for a few months now.)

Any suggestions? The last time I talked to a physical therapist about it, I was told "not everybody is built for running," which was extremely discouraging. At the end of the day, I just want to lose about ten pounds (I'm guessing?) and get some cardio back. Once I get back into the gym, it's not about what I weigh - I don't weigh myself - it's about how hard I can hit and for how long, and about fitting into my clothes again. After four years of martial arts 3 or 4 times a week, I was in pretty darn good shape, and I weighed between 125 and 133, which according to the height/weight scales is bordering overweight for my height. However, that weight was largely muscle, so I just quit weighing myself because it was confusing and stupid. My pants got tighter in the thighs but looser in the waist - my intro to "kung fu thighs" - and I'd rather be strong than thin. So I don't actually know what I weigh right now, but I know none of my clothes fit and I fucking HATE it.

Jun. 24th, 2011

Operation kill-giant-cockroach-that-has-been-using-the-living-room-as-its-playground-all-day: success (finally, after setting up an elaborate and carefully planned diversion involving my cleverly spilling half a large tumbler of tea in my lap, my daughter expeditiously fetching the last clean bath towel in order to mop it up, despite the fact that it was easier to reach any of the previously-used bath towels hanging behind the door, and my feverishly patting dry several library books that were lying on the floor next to my desk.  While the roach peeked out from its hiding place to see what all the fuss was about, thinking to use the lull in active targeting of its crunchy little self to sneak out and get itself some tactically-placed pop-tart crumbs around my desk, I smashed the motherfucker with a marked-up draft of my statement of teaching philosophy, which so far has been all that piece of lousy, useless rhetoric has been good for).

Operation-figure-out-why-I-am-barred-from-registering-for-fall: success (I think).  That took half the day.  You would think that when somebody wants you to pay them some money, that they might make it easier to figure out 1. that they want money, 2. what they want money for, 3, how to go about paying that money.  I had to work awfully hard to give them that money, and I still can't figure out why my less-than-$20 library fine was sent to the registrar's office instead of sent to ME. 

Operation figure-out-why-my-laptop's-CPU-usage-runs-is-100%-from-the-moment-of-startup: Fail.  I have tried all the usual stuff and even sprang for uniblue's registry booster, but to no avail.  My laptop approaches its third birthday looking more and more like it's about to become a large, slightly tea-and-roach-leg-contaminated paperweight.  Suggestions welcome.  (Task Manager isn't telling me much - it never shows anything in the Processes list with a number higher than maybe 15 in the CPU column, and that's when Ad Aware or AVG is running a scan.  I have 192 GB free of 285 GB.  The only thing I can think of that I've installed that roughly coincides with the marked decrease in performance is DropBox, but I haven't uninstalled it to see if that's the problem, because I have so much stuff there and a good bit of it is actively being worked on by multiple people.)  Frown.

from the Alphabet of Tales (reading notes)

Caro. Carnis eciam temptacione Sancti quandoque vexantur.

Heraclides tellis, in 'Libro Paradisi,' how on̛ a tyme a holie monk̘ þat hight Helyas, þat was a virtuos man̛ & had grete petie & mercye of wommen̛, had vndernethe his gouernance in a monasterie CCC wommen̛. And when̛ he had contynued in þis occupacion̛ ij yere, and was bod of xxxti or xlti yere age, sodanlie he was attempyd̛ with his flessℏ, and onone as he felid̛ þis, he went oute of his monasterie ij dayes in-to wyldernes, & made hys prayer in þis maner of wyse; " Diuine deus meus, et c̛. Lord̛, I beseke þe owder to remefe þis temptacion̛ from̛ me, or els sla me!" So at evyn̛ sodanlie he feƚƚ opon̛ a slepe, & hym̛ thoght þer come vnto hym̛ iij angels þat sayd̛; "Why went þou furtℏ oute of þe
monasterie of þies wommen̛?" And he ansswerd̛ & said̛, for he was ferd̛ þat owder he sulde noy þaim, or þai hym̛. And þai sayd̛ þai suld̛ delyver hym̛ of þis drede, and bad hym̛ go home & take charge of þaim agayn̛. And he grawntyd̛ þerto & made þaim ane athe at he sulde do so. And þai layd̛ hym̛ down̛, & one of þaim held̛ his handis & a-noder his fete, & þe thrid̛ with a rasur cutt away bothe his balok-stonys, not at it was done, bod as hym̛ thoght it was done; and þan̛ þai askyd̛ hym̛ if he was any better, & if he was any bettyr þan̛ he was befor̛. And he ansswerd agayn̛ & sayd̛; "I vnderstand̛ þat a hevie burdyn̛ is taken̛ fro me, and þerfor̛ I trow þat I am̛ delyverd̛ of þat at I was fuƚƚ ferd̛ for." And with-in v dayes he went agayn̛ in-to his monasterie, & liffid̛ þerin afterward̛ xlti yere. And as holie fadurs says, fro thens forward sucℏ a thoght come nevur after in his mynde.
pp 88-89, Alphabet of tales : an English 15th century translation of the Alphabetum narrationum of Etienne de Besançon, from Additional MS. 25,719 of the British Museum
Etienne de Besançon
Mary Macleod Banks

dissertation stuff

Prof. Arthur is the first to get back to me on my prospectus - not surprising, since he has almost no additional departmental duties right now (unlike Ecghete who is dir. of Undergrad Studies and Plotinus who is dir. of Graduate Studies in his department) and is also, I believe, on leave.  I sent them all the Milton article when I finished it Monday night, as a draft of Ch 5, which might be more of a coda than a chapter - I haven't worked out the overall organization yet.  Arthur wrote: "diss chapter 5 draft: BRILLIANT" and "I'm finished looking at the prospectus and will put it in your box today or tomorrow.  I've put comments in margins, etc., but on the whole think you are on to something Really Big, a book in fact."  (This is not as impressive as it might sound -- if I end up getting a job, it will doubtless become a book as most dissertations are meant to do these days, but it is not a book that many will want to read.  There is a reason that much of this is uncharted territory; it's boring, confusing due to its engagement with some fairly complex philosophy, hugely theological, and probably not rigorous enough to please philosophers, who would be about the only people interested in its major premises.  I imagine literature people drive philosophers crazy.  But I'm hoping Prof. Plotinus will steer me away from any major faux pas since he is, after all, a philosopher.) 

He also says he is ready to sign off on the prospectus as is, and this: "You say of the essay, "And in any case it will need to be reframed/rewritten yet again for the purposes of this dissertation."  I would say, Not so very much.  One way NOT to would be to include it as a kind of Appendix with a short preface indicating how the essay relates, in a very general way, to your work on OE materials.  I myself would be perfectly happy to see it done this way." That strikes me as a pretty odd way to structure a dissertation, but it also strikes me as a problem to worry about later, not now. So for the moment, so far good news, and I'm just waiting on Ecghete and Plotinus to get back to me.

A shout-out is owed to Jonathan Jarret, especially, here, I think, for helping me get the article into a shape where its arguments could be followed by non-specialists.  Prof. Arthur is quick to say "lose all this jargony junk" in response to my writing; if I have avoided jargon as much as possible and still explained some of this ontological stuff in understandable terms, its largely due to his feedback.  Thanks, Jonathan.  And also lapsus_lingue and knut and inkmark for the same on earlier drafts.

I think i have a cold - I am finding air conditioning unbearable and am sitting on the porch in the heat to stay warm - but I have to try to get something done on Chretien today after my twelve-hour nap.
The journal wants a 40 word bio.  I looked at the last couple of issues (it's a new requirement for the journal) and everybody says "professor of yada at yada university" and "book on yada yada." 

What the hell do *I* say?

latin help

“Spiritus enim, ut substantia excellentior, substantiam utique inferiorem virtualiter, quod aiunt, et eminenter, in se continet; ut facultas facultatem spiritualis et rationalis corpoream, sentientem nempe et vegetativam.” 

WTF with "quod aiunt"? Does it signal that the ut clause here is supposed to be indirect discourse?  Am I to read this as a statement that spirit contains inferior substance, and that it does so (as they say) virtually and eminently?  And then the ut clause as being more of what this unnamed source says?

The bigger question is, who is the "they" suggested by quod aiunt?  John of St. Thomas?  Aquinas?  Exactly which part of this is to be understood as being "what they say" or what is commonly said?

libary list

Corneliu Dragomirescu.  Gestures as Performance Markers in French Illuminated Mystery Play Manuscripts: The Case of the Vengeance Nostre Seigneur in MS Arras, Bibl. Mun. 697. Viator 41.2 (2010)

Vicki Hamblin.  Striking a Pose: Performance Cues in Four French Hagiographic Mystery Plays
Comparative Drama - Volume 44, Number 2, Summer 2010, pp. 131-154

Grimbert, Joan Tasker. Eve as Adam's pareil: Equivalence and Subordination in the Jeu d'Adam. Literary Aspects of Courtly Culture. Ed. Donald Maddox. Rochester: Boydel and Brewer, 1994. 29-37.



return apocalypse book to theol for recall (where the hell did you put it?!)
find out why I'm "barred" and how to get un-barred

I am trying to finish the last editing/style stuff re Milton, then knock out the Chretien article and get it sent, and then put together a proposal for SEMA, and then get cranking on writing two diss chapters by August just as soon as I hear back from my committee on teh damned thing, and then there are the usual rent-paying things.  Mix with personal life stuff including offspring's end-of-year things both good and not so good and I have not been online a lot and frankly don't know when i will be. But lj is good for note-storing and thinking-writing so I do want to at least use it for that even if I haven't been a great conversationalist lately.  

P.S. Would anyone care to read an article on Chretien de Troyes in about 2 weeks, just for "reader response," not for editing or anything?  The audience/journal is non-medievalist and it's only had feedback from medievalists (though it has never had feedback from someone who actually does medieval french lit, which is not great, but I haven't been able to pin one of those people down).  I suppose it'd be best described as gendery with some seriously thin bits of theology and art history in the mix.  I need to make sure it's accessible and that I have patched up my famous issues with clunky or missing transitions and major freakin' digressions.  I promise it's an easier read than Milton (and shorter too) :-)  In fact, after Milton, everything seems like an easier read and I actually think my dissertation as a whole will be less painful and drawn out than the Milton was.  How crazy is that. How crazy can a thirty page article make you?  Pretty damned crazy I guess.
Fuck - I just can't get the "prospectus" under forty pages, mostly because I am never "fresh" when I'm looking at it and I'm getting mired down in sorting out and providing details and nuances and footnotes, which is NOT i think what a prospectus is for, but as usual "I don't have time to make it shorter." I go in and cut and then I end up adding.  I just don't know this genre. I'm going to take a nap, make my edits, rewrite the chapter four 'outline/summary' part, and turn it in tomorrow - it's not going to get any better until I can take a few days away from it, and I can't do that until it's in the committee's hands. Plus I'm falling asleep and drooling on my draft, which is just gross.  And the more I read it, the more i see is wrong or stupid or arrogant or poorly written and the more paralyzed i get. Ugh.

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